Elliot C Smith
June 16, 2020
I wonder often if habits are harder to keep when things are going well or going poorly. My cycle of habit building tends to be about getting me out of a state that I don’t want to be in. I’m unfit, time to exercise. I’m falling behind on work, lets get organised. These work well and get me to a better spot. When I get there, that’s when it gets hard.
May 25, 2020
I had a surreal experience over the weekend. I’d never paid much attention to twitch.tv in the past but after watching some Youtube videos that were stream recordings I thought I would give it a go. I was mostly interested to watch live development streams rather than games being played.
I created an account and started watching a stream. I was one of about 150 viewers in the middle of the day in Australia.
May 19, 2020
Today I feel grumpy as hell. It feels like I woke up that way. I can’t pin it on anything logical which frustrates me more. Rather than rant about being in a bad mood, it makes me think again of a tracking app I’ve had in the back of my mind for a while.
I would like an app that hooks into things like Garmin Connect and other apps that track interesting data and then combines that with some self reported metrics.
May 17, 2020
Inspired by some recent posts on Hacker News I thought I would bit the bullet and write again for the hell of it. I came across https://100daystooffload.com/ at the footer of a blog I was reading and thought it sounded like a relaxing way to write. I have next to no expectations, plans or ideas to write about right now. I will write though. I am sure after enough writing, I’ll find areas that are worth a little more attention.
Having Something to Say
March 17, 2020
I wanted to write more in public because I thought it may help me write better. It might. It could improve my grammar and catch a passive voice here and there. I am not really sure that’s what I wanted though. I am realising the hardest part of writing every day is not the words. It’s having something useful to say.
A part of that comes from confidence, and some from tempering.
March 16, 2020
We’re working remote this week. Mostly to provide some social distancing, but also a little bit as an experiment in what a remote company would look like. If I could make it work I would run a remote company. One with regular, social and work based face to face but where the day to day is remote.
One thing that needs work is video calls. Whether it’s latency or the medium, when two people talk at once it’s a mess.
Say It Out Loud
March 13, 2020
I am in the following situation more often than is sensible not to question:
“X was critical for Y reason! Why didn’t we hit X?” “How was I supposed to know X was important, let alone for Y?” “I thought I made it obvious.” It’s rarely obvious. Things that are obvious to me as the boss aren’t magically obvious to others. Culture is explicit. I am learning that if something is key, saying it out loud works best.
March 12, 2020
Sometimes I get anxious. It’s a part of my personality I am trying to improve but for now it happens. When it does I can get stuck. Stuck in a loop of worry and it makes my unproductive. It usually doesn’t last a long time but it is annoying. I see myself as rational and there is often nothing I can rationally pin it to. That means I need to find ways to decouple the emotional response from the rational one.
March 11, 2020
I am trying to write more. I’ve been writing a lot in private, in a journal, and I write a lot for work. Emails, updates, documents, plans. I want to write more through a different lens. One that is more personal. One that is trying to find all of the links between things. Laying out the pieces that might eventually form something significant. I also just want to be a better writer.
Getting Past One
August 19, 2019
I can do a pull up now. Right now its just one but last month it was all about getting to one. For all the time before that it was all about getting to one. One is tough. Getting to one from zero feels a lot more than getting to two from one. The door is open now.
It made me think about where else I’m working on getting to one.
August 4, 2019
A soft yes, one you give because it’s something you “probably should say yes to”, is a dangerous yes. A soft yes takes time or resources. A soft yes returns, but it’s dampened by its softness. A soft yes should be a hard no. Find the soft yes, and purge it.
Searching for the soft yes can be tough. Most of the time a soft yes is given without thinking. The extra meeting you didn’t have time for.
July 15, 2019
I was listening to an interview between Seth Godin and Tim Ferris. In the interview Seth classified the difference between freelancing and entrepreneurship. In a rough rewording, it came down to leverage. Freelancing is all about swapping your time for money. Entrepreneurship is about finding a need and filling it with a resource that isn’t you. That might be a new person, a new process or some new piece of technology.
July 13, 2019
The path to taking action can feel like water running through a maze of pipes. If it gets all the way to the faucet, action happens. When water is blocked, it doesn’t. Our jobs, as managers of our own lives and managers of others are to be the plumbers. Sizing, laying and adjusting pipes to get as much water through as we can.
Some days bad things happen. These bad things are like rocks in the pipes.
July 5, 2019
Even the wording is alluring. Clean. New, exciting, free from all the things that were bad last time. I find my self daydreaming about clean slates more than I’d like to admit. Hell, even this blog is me starting over from scratch. I’ve thrown out code project, writing projects, daily schedules. I’ve begun to realise why it happens and why starting fresh can be a lot more costly than it seems.
Being Comfortable Being Unconfortable
May 2, 2017
I’ve come to realise that anything that’s worth doing is located at least one foot outside your comfort zone. The things that matter are there, like starting relationships or ending them, diving into your next startup, learning a new skill. All these things come to people who put in the work and spend time time doing things that are uncomfortable. The tough part is that most of these things aren’t essential.